So badly

Well.. it's about 1h more till it's my birthday..i miss you much..i see you online but i cant talk to you. just want to ask you how was your day? what did you? why so tired? i miss you voice..so badly..i have this hope that you would come back to me i dont know why i do cos it just kills me..to see you forget me.. i .. have so much of this feeling.. i want to talk to you.. but you dont seem to say anything back.. have so much on my mind as i go onto 20.. i know that after this 24 alot has got to change..just want to by side..i dont make alot of money and i am not that great of a person but she still loved me and cared for me.. even when all the shit i did was something that u want to hear or see.. but You still loved me no matter what has happen.. as i do this i have tears coming down ., i did see the pain in your eyes all the nights you cryed for me when i was not there when i could not be there.. when you send me off into 'Ns' i hated that day when i could not see u .. all i could do was think of coming out and seeing you.. you were my fire..so much pain now..so much of things i just want to say to you to tell you that i want to take care of you till your old and cant walk anymore.. i want you to be the mother of my kids..so much for all that.. 'She said i will always be by your side'

You are mine and i am yours.. that was somethngs that was said.. if only..

coming home has no more fire to it at all..

weekends are just something i have to go on to..

i hate sundays where i no longer just sit there and see you sleep..

i hate who i am now.. just hate all this..

coming home baby girl.. i miss you

I am sorry

I ... need ... you..


Peace out