Walls..

Walls something that i face everyday... but some of them i put up myself.. what more can i say some wait allot of the things in my life happen cos of the way i take and handle things.. well back to what i wanted to say i just got back 1 day ago from a trip with my church people.. which was very fun if all of them could be there would have been great, but nvm it was all good! i am going to miss all this .. thinking about things makes me very sad.. cos to think come next year allot of things are going to change, i wish that people did not have to go away.. it's not fair to think like that but 1 thing that i have found about myself is that i don't want to get go of anyone that i have in my life, which is not good at all.. i mean i don't want to be alone i guess i think .. i don't know.. but its just that i hold on to things people and the past to much for my own good.. i don't know how to let go don't know how to give up don't know how to day i don't want to feel this pain.. its going to be very painful to see the people in my life move and move.. as i still stay here and face day by day.. with a hole in my heart.. to think that this would be like one of the last time that i going to be out with them to a camp and anywhere, just saying it is painful.. what more can i say.. i don't know where to go what to do about this feeling.. and the new people that come into my life i have this feeling that they are going to run away from me, so i hold so much.. which in the end is not good at all.. and the past i cant let go off.. thinking about all that happen i feel like why cant things go like a story which i can say.. and read about.. something where i find the one who loves me. and i love back.. someone who gave me there heart.. yet i killed it with my hands.. so badly i want to be loved that i give up on all thing good in my life.. till i find my hope.. till i can stand up and say i have moved on and just not hold on to things in my life and let go...


To let go is like giving GOD all the things in life , and to say i am ONLY HUMAN..


Peace out