Thinking

As always i think to much about things in my life.. it was just one of the days were things hit hard and they just come non stop.. what more can say about today.. i got to see my past today don't know if a good or bad thing cos when they good byes were said none were said to me.. that kind of pain i told myself that i wont feel any more plus.. i would not say that things are very good.. i hate the way i feel now i have told myself that i don't want to feel like this anymore..! no more..! the pain that 1 time in your life is more than anything.. but yet i am feeling it now.. when you call someone out if you cant make it you tell them rite?.. i was called out today night.. but guess what when i call to ask for more info no ans.. i give up la.. i am still in the same shit .. things have not change.. i still am the one who feels the pain.. when i said that i wont feel this way( sad,alone,used,kicked out of someone life,hating myself) ya so that is all that is going in my head now.. i want to ask did you get back safely but i know i wont get a reply.. but still i want to sms.. sucker for pain..as always.. the pain is all that i feel.. for real.. the nightmare has to stop.. pls .. someone.. stop them.. i need rest..i want to sleep..


PEace out