"Happy Xmas" My ASS

Life is full of ups and down. we all know that we also know that things in life make us who we are.. now.. the things that have been happening in my life .. i don't think i am going to like the person that i may become.. ok let me start from where i think i should start. on Friday 19/12/08 i went out with her. She came late so it gave me more time to go and see what is could buy for her that she may like to eat. so i saw her i was in red she was in red. went down to the beach had lots of fun talking and Kissing of cos.. and opening up to each other.. i could look her on the eye and tell her you are so Beautiful GOD has made you like none other that i have ever seen. it was from about say 1pm till 11pm we were with each other. it all went good very good it was so hard to say good bye knowing that the week to come i would not be able to see her, For her new job was starting and she had a camp to go for.

That night we talked for about 2-3h on the phone. we did sms each other BUT soon after that .. no reply from msg. Or calls, if felt like when she was studying for her exam and that i could not talk to her. so i got worryed msg her sis and her sis told me that after the camp she got very sick.. and was resting most of the time. so to me was ok .. u could just msg me.. but nvm.. that she msg me asking me to read my email. now WE all know Emails are not good.. so i will not say what was in the email cos that is for only me to know. but! it did say " let's just be good Friends"

Now! ! tell me how would u feel.. i read the maill ok she said she will call me .. the next night.. but guess what no call.. i waited like the F**ker that i am i waited for her call nothing.. ok i called her atr 11:58pm to wish her merry X mas.. did not pick up.. up to now nothing... nothing at all..

So how should i take this..?

I want to smile
i want to feel loved
i Give up on all this..


No peace at all..


Good bye Prinecss..