So Fast??

Wow.. Wow.. hahaha..i am back here.. hahaha..back to this place where i said i would not go at all.. lolz.. The past just killed me and i said that i would not come back here come back to where i am now! .. as a tear comes down my eye i smile to myself thinking ' suresh F*** your back to this same place where the Girl has moved on SO FAST! and your feeling the shit of the after math ' and your like how is she is she ok and here it comes F*** YOU she does not give a F*** . your alone here just when you were like maybe she feels the pain too and here it comes NO she does not.. maybe it's just the mood now talking .. but wow.. so fast as alwasys i am left back here thinking what a sucker i am to think that anyone would give a shit.. F*** you suresh.. for letting yourself feel this way.

lol.. where is my Drink.. i need it.. F*** 2008 what i shit year..

F*** all this shit fine i am Emo fine you know why this is the only place where i can let it out .. i am sick of trying to smile .. Sick of all this shit in my life..

o peace where have thy gone? Why has thu left me? what have i done to make your face trun away from me? Tell me What must i dont to Make you smile? What must i do to smile and be happy. To feel happy to be alive to see the things that i have seen to feel the things that i have felt to meet the people that i have loved and lost. Why me Why now? Come back to me and give me back my peace that you have so taken away from me. Just as the day looks for the night and the night the looks for the day i can never seem to find you the one the would give me back my Smile.. i have lost it.. But now it seem that no one wants it anymore..no one not even you that one that gave it to me..

Pain..