What more do You want?

Well as always i have fcuked up something.. i don't know how i ended up this way when i said i WILL NOT DO THIS TO MYSELF ANYMORE! and yet here i am feeling like shit feeling like i wish all this would just end here now, i dont know what went wrong and where i did what .. or did i even do anything at all. i have been thinking alot of what happeing with me now.. i just dont want to be alone this new year. na i have a feeling that i would be.. I miss my past and i miss what i just had.. today i felt down. i knew that this is going to happen and the past has moved on without me. while i stand still in my time and space.. where i am lost .. lost to all things good all things that made me happy that are now taken away from me. what more do i have, just when i was happy just when i started to think that " you know what someone like me can be happy too someone like me can find someone to love me back. " (Like Real) than it hit me very hard. that i was ment to be the guy who is alone.. always walking alone be alone..by myself.. My head is killing me so much now days so badly i have not told any one in my family and i dont want to cos part of me thinks that they just dont give a shit . and i dont give a shit about me anymore. there is nothing to care about. i need to slp and get my mind of things.


This goes out to all my frens i am sorry for not being there as much as i should.. alot has happen than no one knows about.. The pain has taken away my peace i am Sorry..dont just give up on me yet..


GOD be with me now of all times pls..