$$

I have to wait till 12 dec for my pay to come in for me to do anything.. and this sux big time! i dont have money !!! i now have 17 with me till the 12 dec! wth! today was good going back to church spent the whole day there helping them for the CBS which was nice.. all in all it was ok but , something bugs me is that when i asked for help to do things ppl were like i cant do this and cant do that my hand pain.. both my hands are in pain but i did not say anthing.. i just dont get them sometime.. not at all.. sighz..

Going to sleep now

Peace out

sighz

there are so many things in my life i wish i did not do .. like how i wish that i had studied.. like how i wish i did my IPPT before NS.. like i how i wish that i could be someone that someone could love..i am a Indian guy how like chi songs food and what not.. i dont know .. where i went wrong.. i don't know who i am..sighz.. i dont have any $$ for this month.. and i so hate this!!


NO PEACE AT ALL!!!

The Fray - Look After You

This song is to someone .. telling her to let go and fall on me..

The Fray - Look After You

f I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh

Goo Goo Dolls - Before it's to late

Goo Goo Dolls - Before It's to Late

I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris


And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

It was only 4 days..

Well here i am back, back with something to say, always with something to say but none the less i will say it.. my week has had it's ups and downs. have not been doing as much as i should.. today is Friday and soon the new month will start.. i have to hold on with $30 till my pay comes in. i don't know how to do that. there are two songs i would like to post here today if anyone does look at my blog i want all of you out there to read it .. before i do that.. i have been having my head pain for like months it does not want to go off. it comes and go off. something is wrong with me i just cant tell what..! there are some stuff on my mind i dont know how to put it down to words .. i hope the next two songs will tell it all.



Peace out for now

22 days...

Well it;s been 22 days from my last post.. this post is going to be more emo i guess. somethings have been on my mind for this past few days. one of them would be how much the past comes back to bite me in the ass.. i have told myself that i would not let myself feel this way that feeling where i hate myself hate how other people in my life make me feel like shit.. i hate! that! .. why do i let them that much i dont know... things have gotten batter i guess with Bat woman ( nick name ) but sitll have to wait .. waiting is ok but this feeling where i could not see or hear her voice is something that has happen to me befor.. i still feel the pain.. is something that i have felt befor from someone.. calling not picking the phone sms no reply.. u feel like shit.. i know that bat women is bz studying so it ok.. but i cant help but feel like saying i have been hurt by my past befor and that i dont want to feel this pain anymore. cos it's to much for me to take.. i dont want to end up feeling more and more shit in my life.. i am someone who has somehting to give in love.. someone who has feelings who has a ... h..e...a..r..t.. to feel all this.. i dont want to be a jackass like some guys i am trying here.. but to you what do u see?...


I still callled meow meow .. i still feel something .. PAIN.. why suresh why...


Peace out..

no peace at all...( my head pains are coming more and more as each day pass's )

Thinking

As always i think to much about things in my life.. it was just one of the days were things hit hard and they just come non stop.. what more can say about today.. i got to see my past today don't know if a good or bad thing cos when they good byes were said none were said to me.. that kind of pain i told myself that i wont feel any more plus.. i would not say that things are very good.. i hate the way i feel now i have told myself that i don't want to feel like this anymore..! no more..! the pain that 1 time in your life is more than anything.. but yet i am feeling it now.. when you call someone out if you cant make it you tell them rite?.. i was called out today night.. but guess what when i call to ask for more info no ans.. i give up la.. i am still in the same shit .. things have not change.. i still am the one who feels the pain.. when i said that i wont feel this way( sad,alone,used,kicked out of someone life,hating myself) ya so that is all that is going in my head now.. i want to ask did you get back safely but i know i wont get a reply.. but still i want to sms.. sucker for pain..as always.. the pain is all that i feel.. for real.. the nightmare has to stop.. pls .. someone.. stop them.. i need rest..i want to sleep..


PEace out